LET THEM SAY WHAT THEY WANT.

im past caring.
its just blocks and choir and work for me, now.
and church of cos.
God is always here. for me.

today i had JTS.
which wouldve been funner if not for de amazing race.
quite sian, 4 stops only.
and den we went late mah.
so yea.
ok vball at the courts was damn fun!
i really loved playing vball w my class and juniors!
den had LOVELY SUBWAY for lunch.
omg i totally love subway la. :P

den left, and went for chem tuition.
and at night, was superly stressed out
with all my various commitments-to-be.

dear bros and sis,
pls pray 4 me tt i have de strength to carry on everyday.
i didnt use to believe
there's this thing called FAILING BLOCKS.
im not so sure now.

i have nothing to say.
hurhur.
i shall buck up with my work ESP ART and not think so much.
thinking makes me sad.
and reading yinkae's post
i feel v sad for her mom too
hai.
if my best fren said tt to me when she died
id breakdown too.

Thank God then, tt everything's fine.
Thank God tt choir's getting a 2nd chance at Olympics.

and know what,
its a stunning cold realisation
that, i dont like you.
AT ALL.
so go away, far far away, from me.

i wont forget.
12 years of hurt taught me that.
go. away.
because i can do without these emotions
because i didnt ask for it.
it reminds me all over again, the pain/risk of friendships.

i hope its nothing,
much as part of me thinks otherwise.
pls, its just...
wrong time wrong place wrong person?
argh.

我很烦很烦
can we relook this issue end of year?
oh Lord Jesus, pls help me know whats right to do.

today, class dynamics was surprisingly ok.
omg. hur. im actually saying tt something's ok with my class.
well. hope its not a temporary spell.
but God's in control, as always.

我无心向学
为何呢

爱上你歌词中的这句

心已经被撕碎
撒在空气里飞

中文总是那么诗情画意

give me one last waltz
before i say goodbye
to this torrent of confusion

please! SHUT UP.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
really, its better to just have 2 pple at home
at any one time,
or less.

i just felt like doing some quizzes.
due to stress? or maybe just tangled thoughts.
i dont know. anyhow, here they are:

Your Birthdate: July 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause. You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too. Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others. You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress. Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities Your power color: Crimson red Your power symbol: Snowflake Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force. You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle. An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

shaoning -- [noun]: A master of storytelling 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hahaha. yays :P

ok. update!!!!
thurs. was a super sian day. i cant rmber doing anything meaningful.
plus i wasted my thurs one and half hour break doing nothing but talking.
but aiya. tt one's ok la. diff company.

friday. went for dramafeste, and ares won overall.
im not pleased but its ok. we won best script 3rd year running.
hmmmm. apollo is just lousy risque/crude jokes, personal opinion here.

sat. went for funorama! with darling shuuy :)
yea omg we spent 20 bucks on food. i quite like de gourmet hot dog.
and CHINCHOW! omg <3 hahahah. had 2 cups of tt :P
sad tt jade couldnt accompany us and we couldnt find deb. -.-
eunice was there! but she nv call me -.- hahaha.
or id have seen dizzy's face :P
after tt we left and went orchard, which was EMPTY.
i think half de population was at AC funorama la.

den came home and went for church. heh.

i just wanted to say thanks, for letting me know.
pre-empting in case of an unexpected meet.
but then again.
i wonder, if i was overtly dao.
this will be the last time, i'll allow myself to get affected.
we're all only friends, after all.

Dear Lord,
thanks for sustaining me throughout today's cross country.
its by your grace tt i came in 17th,
so thank you for everything!
muscle-aches and all. =)

today was so slack!
had chem tut only, cos firedrill took away econs tut.
and sch ended early cos of cross country.
hurhur.
went back NY with jade, met lois and gail.
had a great talk w ms choo!
oh, and she'll be leaving NY in march, so yea.
visit her before she's gone!

got 4 boxes of mochis for 10 bucks today!
from NJC...
and gave chryz and shuuy 1 box of peanut and red bean flavours each.
hmph. and they were de nicest flavours!
gave choo de green tea one.
so left de yam for myself. :P
haha. hope its nice!

hahaha. today's Vday was crazy.
mad buzz of activity in de morning of presents-giving made us all late for chem lect for 30 mins!
gosh.
hahaha.
and my chem lecturer sam lee actually saboed de couples in de crowd to do chem questions at the front, TOGETHER.
lol. and he called on jierong and mindy. lols. everyone cheered la! lol.

ive got tons of presents, shant bother to bore pple by listing them.
but thanks to all who gave me stuff!
- shuuy,
-chryz,
-hoonie,
-nehz,
-val,
-ade,
-ethel,
-jam,
-62 guys,
-dora,
-nic,
-sua
-cheng yan
- mel and shawna
-guowei
- angel and mortal!
- yutian

hahaha. thanks y'all. for making my day fun!

i spent 3 hours of my afternoon from 4-7pm at class bench.
kept companied by sua who had nothing to do/nowhere to go also.
and the funky clique of my junior guys!

and peipei came by! lol.
she's still machine gun peishan :P
but i loff her all the same :D
hoonie and nehz were there too, listening to peipei rant on and on. hahahaha.
glad tt she's having great frens at RJ too! =)

yay. funorama coming up! cant wait :D
shuuy! im CHOPEING your company :P

i have decided
to try and curb my angst
because it doesnt do me
nor anyone else for tt matter,
any good.
just let things run their course, and look to God for strength everyday.
i'll be fine =)
yes there'll always be troubles in life,
more for some than others
but whats important is to take it in our stride.
i want to learn to not worry bout things, blow them up bigger than they are, and to try solve them. =)
yay! a new perspective. i want this to last. :D

ive finished 90% of my v day shopping.
im fine with my making stuff, but all the excessive money spent to buy stuff is unnecessary to me.
i dont like the hype generated by the shops to make people consume more.
i believe that if you love someone enough
it doesnt take just one special day to show it
you live out your love everyday
hur. some money making schemes by businesses.
tsk.

now i have to rack my brains about what to get my angel. -.-
this is so irritating.
im neglecting my studies and work for it.
but for the rest tt im makign stuff willingly for, its worth its while. :D
but thanks a million chryz! for keeping me company on sat. =)

海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开
心不在
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水 你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

转身离开 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱 差异一直存在
回不来
风中尘埃 等待竟累积成伤害

转身离开 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此 不够成熟坦白
不应该
热情不再 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切 结束太快
你说你无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏什么期待
等花儿开
我们也已经无心再猜

脸上海风 咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来
转身离开 你有话说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱 差异一直存在
回不来
风中尘埃 等待竟累积成伤害

转身离开 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此 不够成熟坦白
不应该
热情不在 你的笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

help!
im debating whether to buy vday stuff for my angel (who, may i add, havent written since i dont know when)
and for a few other pple.
im wondering if i should. really.
but most prob, no? aiya. i dont know.
because i dont want my gifts to be interpreted wrongly and all.

because i just realised that im tired of all these emotions plaguing me
i just want them to go away
and maybe, i'll be sad for a while, short term, but in the long run i'll benefit?
i just love talking to val.
told her lots, on fri dinner time.

val, ive decided to give it up. she can have them both if she wants.
i renounce any claim, which i dont even think i had any in the first place.
because i just want my world to comprise of frens. =)
***

went out with chryz today!
whole world was at orchard doing last min shopping.
-.- boy do i hate it.

its so good to see peipei again.
even if her life is completely upside down and crazily diff from mine/ours
we'd always have each other to hold on to!
its gd to just sit arnd and talk, like that.
ive missed it alot, esp with gepper frens.

and thanks val for taking dinner with me.
i think, these events are coming to past.
the fact tt i actually talked to a few pple about it
signifies tt its a phase im leaving behind
hopefully soon.

im loving music
of every form, singing it/playing it/hearing it
=D ok tt was random but i was listening to a lovely song
called How Do You Keep The Music Playing
and simply had to say this. =)

i cant wait for V day.
getting/making lotsa stuff for pple. =)
class... cos well. they're my class i dowan them not to get.
choir... exco! and several wonderful buddies
ny geppers... HOW CAN I FORGET
angels and mortals. =) yay!

adora likes to niao me alot.
on stuff i dont appreciate. -.-
but aiya, wad to do, just tolerate la.
but i dunno, i dunno why isit like tt.
i mean, if she like those guys... just go ahead lor.
why am i made out to be in the way?
cos i feel it.


im sorry val, that i didnt eat dinner with you.
i was intending to go home, after settlin stuff at beauty world.
but then after you left sua wanted to eat dinner.
so just hung arnd with him at beauty world macs.

so xinhui you know ;)
haha. shhhhh. its between us kaes. lol.
yay. im listening to nice songs and trying not to think about how screwed i am for my sch work. :X
laods undone.

GOOD. BYE. RIVA.

cant you see that my words wont change anything? so what's the use.

goodbye mrs Goh.
i'll miss every fiber of you.
efficiency, crisp to-the-point rationales and tactfulness.

i, i wasnt feeling well and you didnt help.
somehow, i feel that there's a great divide between us, no matter what others say.
lets face it: you and i are not meant to be.
i have lots of evidence pointing towards tt...
maybe there's a lil sense of loss, wistful regret but its the truth.
we're too different.
val may know what im talking about. =) as always.

anyway, today went with ken to visit nik.
he's better, THANK YOU GOD AND ALL WHO PRAYED.
was irritated by what gw said. ken was too, but then jsut have to live with it la.
it'll keep coming, no matter who it is im with. -.-

im dying for my work.
seriously lagging behind.
someone help me =(

after STJ, i have no voice.
sigh, wish i played instead of organised.
but oh well.
i just hope yuzhong's mom's not pissed at us/me for de catering or wadeva.
:X

aniwae.
ken got me addicted to *gasp* a KPOP song.
and all who know me, know i HATE KPOP.
but this song by Kangta is diff, cos its sung in mandarin.
hmmm. ok i dont like it LIKE IT, just tt its got a funky beat and nice tune.
dont really like de words, cos partly i cant make it out, partly it sounds the same.
haha. wad a joke. but this song is an EXCEPTION!
i still detest kpop, and all things korean. -.-

today!
went to sch for choir orientation.
was not well enough to play, so just helped arnd, at adora's qian's and sua's stations.
other stations were too far for me to run arnd, so GW took pics for those stations.
haha.
yup it was ok, but aiya. Quek...
dragged everything by having this bonus perf thing so we ended late.
and btw his group won. they were 1st to come in... half an hour earlier than any other groups, and very very enthu.

i took many pics! so happy =)
and after choir, went for lunch and i bought my loffly adidas bag. 40 bucks...
im so happy! mom said it looked great hoho. she was a lil envious, i suspect. hahaha.

den for church, sermon was gd.
cell group went to macs to talk over food. haha.
great time. thank God!

but itd be crazy for me for whole of sunday.
chiong work plus amazing race and STJ. bleagh.
and poor nicholas is hospitalised cos his lung collapsed. :X so worried.
choir's visiting tml... but i cant go. :X acks.
hope he'll be ok...

im back, after much interval.
hmmmm.
alvin chia in de end i didnt watch memoirs, and you watched. -.-
hmmmmmph. you poooo. =X

yea aniwae.
i think things are settling down more, im settling down more.
and well, God is all i need.
and i have my darling frens (those who really know me la... )
and yup. im learning to be content.
i think ive learnt alot, reflected alot and sorted out alot of my thoughts.
which is gd! =)
i am still learning to be happier!




on other news.
im sick.
my whole family is sick, and my dad passed it to my mom, and then they both infected me =(
so yea: cough, sore throat, flu.
bleagh. pls pray tt i'd be fine! to do work and mug other events tt im IC of. yups.
thanks all!